So I’m sat here in a park, on my own just evaluating my life. And I’ve realised that my love life is quite jumbled & stupid. Metaphorically, my heart has alot of scars and bruises but it still beats for people that just take advantage of me and make me cry.
Well NO MORE! I’m sorry, I’m not having this anymore. Every relationship I’ve been in has just been a joke. None have taken me seriously & none have lasted over 7 months. Plus I ALWAYS have regrets. There isn’t one person that I can think of that I have actually mantained a happy relationship with.
Always lying. Too sexual. Too immature. Didn’t take education serious.
I feel too deep in love. He was more in love with his friends.
Long distance & cheated.
#Person 4: [Current]
Frequently makes me cry. Immature.
The thing about my current is that he is actually a great guy. But the things he does just gets on my nerves. Example: ‘I tell him that he hangs around with other girls rhan he does with me & he tells me to stop being jealous & continues when I’m genuinely serious. Why would you do that? I’ve actually had enough. From now on I’m going to just set my priorities straight & focus on myself rather than others.
THE FINAL TEAR HAS FALLEN.
Just stare at this picture:
Beautiful, isn’t it?
This is a casual night in some part of the world, where the stars just twinkle every night. To me, just looking at the picture just shows how serene and peaceful it is. Who came up with the idea of forming something so pleasant for us to enjoy. God. He did. He created a bunch of these stars for us so we could sit beneath them and stare at its beauty. God created this & many other beautiful things on the earth for us to enjoy and to acknowledge the fact that He has blessed us with these gifts. So lets enjoy it guys, lets enjoy it and be thankful to Him.
You’ve just met. You like them, they make you laugh & you have a few things in common. They’re polite & you’re comfortable around them. You don’t talk much, but you say hello regularly.
You talk to them quite abit. You laugh about a few things and you help eachother with a few minor things. You feel comfortable around & wouldn’t mind meeting up in spare time (although you’d still feel abit awkward).
You are reasonable comfortable with them. You can make a few minor inappropriate jokes & laugh about it. You enjoy spending time with them & you’ve met up in your spare time a few times. You have eachothers’ numbers & text/call eachother only when you need them. You know quite a few things about eachother & you’d rather spend time with them rather than your associates.
YOU LOVE THEM! You laugh about everything & you have almost everything in common. You classify them as family & text eachother all the time. You both have private jokes that only you both understand & you laugh/make inappropriate & offensive jokes about others. You greet eachother with insults & you share deep secrets. Your families know eachother & you’ve had several sleepovers. You don’t know where you’d be without eachother.
Over the weekend, he spoke to me 30% of the time because he had ‘friends over’. This has never EVER happened before. So today, (this may have been the wrong thing to do) I didn’t speak to him the way I usually would, just so he could feel the way I felt over the weekend. Although it worked, it hit him harder than I expected. Which to be honest, is great. Last night, I cried myself to sleep because I wasn’t used to him not paying any attention to me.
Maybe I was/am overreacting? But he seems to be taking this ‘bros before hoes’ thing seriously. I guess I thought he never really saw me as a ‘hoe’. I thought wrong.
Today, he followed me halfway home, apologising. He offered to buy me food because he knows that always makes me feel better. But when I refused, I saw the pain in his eyes. I turned my back on him, climbed on the bus & said bye without looking at him. When I sat on the bus, I looked out of the window & saw him doing mini gestures of anger & regret whilst crossing the road. He didn’t see me.
Did I regret overreacting? Or am I satisfied that he felt the way he’s made me feel?
Nowadays, girls & boys seem like two completely different species. It just seems inhumanely impossible for us to understand eachother as well as get along. For example: Boys assumingly think with their penises whereas girls think with their hearts/minds. But what if it was the other way round? Would males be seen as the more ‘inferior’ species? And speaking of inferior, you could say that the physical features of a human being could reflect they’re social status in society.
Example; women belong in the kitchen -_-
If Men & Women had the same physical features, do you think we’d get along better?
On the other hand, maybe opposites attract. Maybe men & women DO understand eachother BECAUSE we’re different.
What would it take for me to be THIS flexible?
Just look at that picture. This girl has accomplished a pose that only a tiny minority of the world’s population can fulfil. In 2-3 years time I would have joined this tiny minority.
So far, I can almost almost ALMOST do this pose:
I just need to hold it for longer & keep my legs straight & stretch my arm out. In my opinion, I feel that flexibility expresses the beauty of a female & reveals how unique they are. Poses like the ones above reveal elegance & classiness.
I love it.